Keep stepping

23 Feb

I’ve talked before about how amazed I’ve been at the strength and courage I’ve seen in the people around me recently. Their ability to stare fear, trauma, horror in the face, turn away and keep putting one foot in front of the other. Keep stepping forward.

Well fear has turned to face me, and I’m staring him down. Maybe it’s all false bravado. Perhaps I’m protected by a wall made of egg shells. Weak, soon to shatter. But at the moment I’m sucking it up.

You know, if you’d asked me a few months ago I would have laughed at you and told you that this would have been too much. One of the people I love most in this world taken away from me? Pah – it would be the end for me. But I’m still standing, and do you know why? Because the one I love so dearly, the one who has brought me up, nurtured me, taught me everything I know, prepared me for this life, that person has made me strong. Just like her.

So I have found myself surrounded by truly amazing women defiantly facing fear, loss, pain and standing their ground. Screaming, swearing, faltering – but standing nonetheless. Lori, Kristin, Roz, @Cheepcheepcheep, Jen, Stephy, Penny, Sarah (there are more). And do you know what? I think I might just be like you.

This post is for my mother – the one I look up to, the one who amazes me the most, the one who has shown me by example how to just keep stepping. The one who has made me, and will make me, STRONG.

x

24 Responses to “Keep stepping”

  1. Vegemitevix February 23, 2011 at 9:59 pm #

    Yes I think you truly are inspirational. You are still stepping. Bravo.

  2. Jenny paulin February 23, 2011 at 10:02 pm #

    I think both you and your mum are amazing. I wish I had half your strength xx

  3. rozzibee February 23, 2011 at 10:17 pm #

    You are amazing hun. We are all here for you and we all love you xx

  4. Lady-like Pervert February 24, 2011 at 2:11 am #

    Thatta girl!!!! xoxo

    You are starring it down – good for you. And when you waiver and cry at its feet – good for you too!

    The point is: You’ve been dealt a whopper and you are doing amazing!
    xoxo

    ALL the love I can muster….
    xo

    • marketingtomilk February 24, 2011 at 10:39 am #

      Thank you sweet pervy girl! I’m missing my weekly feed of naughtiness, will get back to reading as soon as i can.

      m2mx

  5. missjacq February 24, 2011 at 2:19 am #

    You are a strong lady, I lost my mum 8 years ago and I know how hard it must be for you right now. You are doing really well. You are proud of your Mum and I bet she is extremely proud to have a wonderful lovely daughter like you! Thoughts and prayers are with you both. xx

  6. Alexander Residence February 24, 2011 at 9:01 am #

    So true. Beautiful post. Now I look back, and see all that scaffolding and supporting mum did for me so I could be strong.
    But it’s ok not to be sometimes too, to take off the egg shell armour now and again and let go of being strong. Makes you stronger still 😉
    sending love and strength to you and you family.
    A wonderful dedication to your mum. Take care and keep in touch x

    • marketingtomilk February 24, 2011 at 10:39 am #

      I know. And i’ve no doubt all this bravado will crumble, many times. But for now I’m feeling the strength. x

  7. scribblingmum February 24, 2011 at 10:26 am #

    Glad to hear that you are still stepping. Take care of each other, I think about you often at the moment, take each day at a time x

  8. Shelley Connors February 24, 2011 at 2:21 pm #

    Your words are honest, beautiful and touching. Sending my love x

  9. Sandy Calico February 24, 2011 at 9:56 pm #

    Just a quick (hug) to let you know I’m thinking of you x

  10. Livi February 24, 2011 at 11:45 pm #

    Oh hun *hugs* you are strong, stronger than you realise and she will be so proud of you.
    Just keep going, one day at a time. It does get easier, it takes time but it does.
    Lots and lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  11. bsouth February 25, 2011 at 12:29 pm #

    Ok, so I’ve re-written this comment about half a dozen times, wavering between my desire not to say the wrong thing and my desire to just say something.

    I think we all have reserves of strength that we don’t know about until we have to tap into them. I always thought you were incredibly strong anyway but I’m glad that you are still stepping.

    Thinking of you lots H. xxx

  12. Muddling Along February 25, 2011 at 3:28 pm #

    What a lovely post – you are doing wonderfully, you are carrying on and I hope that I would have a part of your strength in the same situation

    Sending love and my prayers

  13. Chris Mosler February 27, 2011 at 12:33 pm #

    Keep stepping my lovely. So strong. It’s also fine not to be when you can’t be. So much love to you xxx

  14. divasupermum February 27, 2011 at 12:35 pm #

    keep being strong huggs go out to you

  15. Theodora March 6, 2011 at 12:09 pm #

    Sounds like hell on earth. Keep stepping through to the other side.

  16. mumra March 17, 2011 at 5:21 pm #

    How have I have only just seen this…

    ‘What does not kill us, WILL make us stronger.’

    Keep going, its all you can do. x

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